sometimes gorgeous can mean frustration

oh...one more thing....

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 19:56:57 GMT

lewis is awesome
and he is the best person in the world.

haha
<3

oh and by the way...

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 19:47:01 GMT

today is my birthday.
fuck.

wanna know how i feel lately?

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 19:46:01 GMT

m animal fat: today i learned
m animal fat: dope and morphine mixed will kill you instantly
iXhavedreams: FUCKIN SWEET
iXhavedreams: SIGN ME UP

I LOVE PEET.

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 05:35:41 GMT

Ten Body Gun: i definitely met a girl yesterday who was like "I KNOW YOU! YOU BROKE MY NOSE AT A SHOW!" all i could do was laugh
Ten Body Gun: it was a goddamn improvement
iXhaveXdreamsX: hahaha
Ten Body Gun: ugly whores should thank me for punching them in the grill
Ten Body Gun: i mean think about my fists..
Ten Body Gun: whats really important here is im giving them the excuse to get plastic surgery to fix their lives
iXhaveXdreamsX: HAHAHAHA
iXhaveXdreamsX: I LOVE YOU PEET!

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 19:08:52 GMT

so

its almost xmas.

i only went shopping for one person so far....my brother.

i hate the mall and working two jobs there really sucks.

i want to transfer to a different m*a*c sooo badly...i really want to be in the city again.

and...oh my god , my new favorite band is that "PANIC! At the disco" band hahaha... :x

okay that is all.

xo

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 17:45:06 GMT

hi people i'm still alive

bye.

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 17:41:51 GMT

its time for a monthly update, folks!

well...nothing is new really...still working alot...although they cut my hours back starting next week. i'm back to have 4 days off a week which is cool i guess...but now i need to get one day a week somewhere else... maybe the body shop, who knows.

looking forard to seeing Danzig/Behemoth/Himsa on oct 17th. this could be fun.

now that i have some time off, i'll be going back to cutting hair again , so if you want a nice cut for not so much money, let me know.

i really need to work on taking my road test. for real. so when i'm bored i can drive myself away from this place.

thats about it for now.

maybe i'll start updating regularly... but i find that when i do that, i just start complaining a whole lot , about so much shit.
so...yeah..we'll see.

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 17:26:34 GMT

so i've come to the conclusion ( yes here it comes , one of jenn's many epiphanies) that i get bored with people very quickly. its not that i do it on purpose, it just happens. don't worry though, its no one in particular..

and... i work too much.

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 06:57:15 GMT

iXhaveXdreamsX: i DID get tons of buuterflies last night
iXhaveXdreamsX: oh man i did.
x robophile: such a good feeling :/
iXhaveXdreamsX: yeeeah
iXhaveXdreamsX: i was real excited.
iXhaveXdreamsX: but then i got sad again
iXhaveXdreamsX: cause i was like
iXhaveXdreamsX: eh
iXhaveXdreamsX: i dunno what he;s thinking
x robophile: ugh that sucks
x robophile: just take him and be all what are u thinking
x robophile: and grab his peen
x robophile: nah dont do that
x robophile: nm
iXhaveXdreamsX: hahaha

dan comes up with the BEST IDEAS!
i love dan!

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 17:08:04 GMT

this is a repost from my friend scott... this is great!

"In response to this ad..Geraldo has released this bundle of facts about straightedge kids just to remind you how evil they in fact are

- Straight Edge has completely wiped out the bloods, and the crips... are the hells angels next?

- the straightedge kids are also responsible for the tsunami, the last 5 tropical storms, and the last 3 years of Ben Affleck's career

-They also paid the film studio that made summer blockbuster "Batman Begins" to cast Dawson's Creek actress "Katie Holmes", as Batman's love interest

- it's a little known fact that straightedge kids when exposed to light can emmit a gas that kills children, animals, and the elderly

-Straightedge kids actually killed Laci Peterson

-Straightedge kids created the MCAS, just to spite people

- Straightedge kids know who made the pyramids..they just dont tell anyone

-when a tree falls in the forest and no one is around..a straightedge kid can hear it. and then he beats the tree up

-Straightedge kids are the reason Bill Buckner couldnt field that grounder

-Straightedge kids are the reason the last three slayer cds sucked.

-Straightedge kids are neigher animal, vegtable or mineral..they are in fact a larvatic form of cancer

-Straightedge kids are the reason Jadakiss is as hard as it gets

-Straightedge kids eat jew babies

This made my day."

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 06:56:16 GMT

x robophile: yeah i hear youre a ninja
iXhaveXdreamsX: some people only see me once a month

this is a true statement.
sorry guys, i've just been working allll the time. i hardly have any time for myself , and when i am off all i do is sleep or bum around.

i fractured my nose on sunday. long story.
and i dont want to talk about it,.
but my nose is okay , and i am mostly just bruised really bad.

on a different note...i've been thinking alot. a whole lot.
about a whole mess of things.
i truly became a different person in the last 3 months.
not a bad thing, just weird.
since when i am shy?
since when cant i go up to people and just talk?
since when am i all shy to hang out with a certain someone that i have known for years? especially when all of a sudden this person is offering to make the pain in the ass drive to staten island......( you know who you are , and no..i'm not avoiding you or skunking you in any way...this is completely true)
and all my friends who know me real well are going to read this and say " what? jenn? shy? yeah fuckin right!" , but its true. and i dont know where the fuck it came from. and its really bothering me.

okay so on that note.
i'm goin to bed.

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 16:30:27 GMT

i think i'm going to stick to making out with gay boys for a while!
nothing seems to be working out for me ever.....lately.

i'm going to take a nice trip soon... either to ohio.. or the south. i'm leaning more towards ohio, to visit johnny. haven't seen him in 2 years. it will probably be fun.

i need to find some models to use for my portfolio and i need to find a photographer willing to do some trade-offs.

Hooray for me , i rule.

not.

i hope this weekend is fun.

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 04:28:48 GMT

so much shit went on this weekend and i dont even feel like writing about it.

went out and met up with tyler and just had a really fun time.

i'm so tired and i think i'm gunna go back to sleep now.

work tomorrow till 11:15pm eww.

fuckin one day sales.
kiss my ass.

gnight xo

Sun, 10 Jul 2005 08:41:04 GMT

iXhaveXdreamsX: youre goin to dead and buried?
BANGGBUSDOTCOM: that show is cancelled
iXhaveXdreamsX: oh word?
iXhaveXdreamsX: why
BANGGBUSDOTCOM: no idea
BANGGBUSDOTCOM: you know sammy and his crazy booking ways
iXhaveXdreamsX: hahahaa i guess madonna and burger king cancelled
BANGGBUSDOTCOM: yeah and without them the other bands cancelled
iXhaveXdreamsX: shit
BANGGBUSDOTCOM: madonna cancelled because sammy didn't offer enough money
BANGGBUSDOTCOM: burger king dropped off because sammy booked wendys
iXhaveXdreamsX: he couldnt get Arby's to fill in?
BANGGBUSDOTCOM: that idiot
iXhaveXdreamsX: hahahahahahhaa
BANGGBUSDOTCOM: they got beef and shit
BANGGBUSDOTCOM: literally
iXhaveXdreamsX: are we seriously having this conversation hahahaha~~
iXhaveXdreamsX: hahahahahahahahahahaahhahaahahahhaa
BANGGBUSDOTCOM: hahahaha
iXhaveXdreamsX: HAHAHAHAA
iXhaveXdreamsX: GREATEST EVER!

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 01:31:12 GMT

i got into a fight with some lady today

it was funny

she was trying to steal wedge sponges from our beaker behind the counter

and then cursed me out in some language when i caught her.
she didnt even buy anything!
i mean , okay i understand if you bought a foundation, yes i will give you some sponges.
but jesus christ , lady .... go to CVS and buy them for $1.99 for like 30 of them! fuckin cheap bitch.

i swear though , i think she took some after i turned around..

i hate people haha
_______________________________________

tomorrow should be fun.
on my way to being a possible Product Specialist hahaha ooooo important haha

Mon, 04 Jul 2005 23:44:36 GMT

motherfucker was good last night.

why do gay boys feel the need to stick their tongue in my mouth?

<3

www.lastnightsparty.com

http://www.namlive.com/lastnightsparty/motherfucker6/index.html

look at the second link first.

debauchery at its finest.

thanks dimitry for handing me this oppurtunity to actually GO OUT for once <3<3<3

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 05:37:54 GMT

i fucking hate when people who you THINK you can trust only are friends with you when their life is going really shitty. and call you up to complain about their situations and then when everything is okay , just forget about you like nothing.
i guess youre only friends with me when SHE'S a real cunt to you. which is probably 95% of the time from what you were telling me ... it seems like it is. was she really standing over your bed with a knife? were you even telling the truth? or just telling me that for the sake of bulllllshit.
you do a good job of going back on your words.

i'm sorry .. but this is how i feel.
i dont like being given a run around.

remember... i'm only looking out for you cause i care so much.

but it looks like i shouldn't give a shit anymore.

over and done.

unexpected 11am wake up calls are the best!!!

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 17:01:48 GMT

i went to six flags yesterday, had to wait on ridiculous lines FOR EVERYTHING. bathroom , food, bottle of water...rides of course. i hate new jersey. ha, i'll def go back again though.

its kind of funny how we all had the most fun on the fuckin teacups haha
no but really, those things are fun when you have 4 people who are determined to spin the shit out of it. i'm definitely still dizzy from it.

Kingda Ka , that record breaking tallest, fastest was closed. fuckin bastards, i was hoping to die on it.
they said it wasnt passing safety tests. PERFECT!
that thing looked pretty scary. and i dont get scared easily just by looking at something,.

i got sunburn all over my shoulders. its not painful though, so thats good i guess. i just have horrible tan lines.

i have work all this weekend. sucks so much , this would have been perfect beach/ boardwalk weather.

okay i ususally dont listen to this kind of music.... but... this popular hawthorne heights song is so fucking catchy. its going to be such a money maker. :x

someones keeping their promises still. that's amazing. :)
just look forward, never look back.
you better dedicate a song to me. not "murder" though, thanks...

thats about all thats goin on in my world, if you all even care.
time for work. hooray.

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 10:27:33 GMT

ugh i'm running on 2 hours of sleep and i have such a long day ahead of me.

i just want to go back upstairs and pass out in my bed.

i dont feel like going alllll the way to the city right now. ugh i hate myself right now so much.
my eyes are so bloodshot. lovely.

FUCK!

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 16:16:38 GMT

i think i am going to pay someone a niiiice friendly visit soon.
and tell them whats on my mind. i dont care how much it costs either.
and tell them to stop bullshitting, lying, and causing problems and being a sneaky ass motherfucker.

its long overdue.

FAIR WARNING.

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 03:24:17 GMT

bored lately.

working alot.

not hanging out as much as i should.

luis on thursday! good times.

i'm getting a kitten.
someone help me out with a cute name

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 05:42:36 GMT

I can't believe my heart's still pounding
I can't believe how close I came
And meanwhile heaven's falling
The fallen angels flown away
And that'll be me someday
With stolen wings and evil ways
Straight south with the keys to the pearly gates

Hard to believe my heart stopped pounding
Hard to believe I played this game
My worst nightmares became real
I got so scared that I forgot my name
And that'll be me someday
With stolen wings and evil ways
Straight south with the keys to the pearly gates
___________________________________________________

you've been keeping your promise. you have no idea how much that means to me.

and i've been keeping my head up.

it's time for you to do the same.
and don't let this rot you from the inside out.
karma is a fucking bitch , but you don't deserve this.

i still despise FAKE people. fake "friends". what goes around comes around, my darling.

the bitch is BACK.
goodnight.

ESTEE LAUDER WAS A FUCKING CUNT

Sat, 21 May 2005 17:32:15 GMT

okay i really need to be working right now.
this transferring bullshit is really pissing me off.
cmon M.A.C.... i got fucking bills to pay!!! estee lauder and damn background checks. dumb french bitch.

my cell phone is going to be accepting incoming calls and texts only... they shut off my outgoing service.
i owe like 140 something dollars.
FUCK.

loan payment due in a week. HAHAHA wow i'm so dead!

someone donate money to me!

goddamm i wish i was still in boston, minus food poisoning.
fuck fillipe's!

Sat, 21 May 2005 07:36:56 GMT

so i went to boston on wednesday night... just got back tonight ( friday )

gooooood times!!!!
besides getting sick from eating a Fillipes burrito :( vomiting.... not my favorite thing to do.
(sorry i broke the toilet hahaha )

only saw lauren for like an hour though.... that girl makes me smile so much...

didnt see little miss virulent though!!! :(

i'll be back soon.
to snore in your face
♥

Tue, 17 May 2005 19:56:37 GMT

so....
i'm NOT in boston hanging out with scott , sean , lauren or becca..
and that sucks.

going to have to wait two weeks till after i make my loan payment.

goddammit.

I REALLY WISH I WORKED MORE THAN 3 DAYS A WEEK.
I HATE SITTING IN MY HOUSE.

i hate sitting around thinking about dumb things.

i hate how there are pieces of you left behind, ugh it pisses me off so much.
i should just burn my room down.
and start all over again.

i hate losing a best friend.
i feel so helpless.

i know you aren't completely happy.
but you do a good job at faking.

I NEED TO GET AWAY.
HOLY FUCKING SHIT.